I've been put in a situation that is making me really stressed. Some friends are going up north tomorrow and I was called Thursday night to confirm a ride Friday night. Because I was told we didn't have novice coaching this weekend I agreed to go up. Unfortunately, a few hours after I confirmed I was asked to go to the SUS (Scottish Universities) archery match this weekend. I knew about the match, but didn't think that I would get asked to go because of my short time here and knew of the people that were already asked. Therefore, when I was asked, it was a huge surprise and I really wanted to say yes, but I had to think about the trip. I was given until tonight to decide so I got really stressed out. The whole situation makes me feel like I have to chose which friends I want to hang out with more. Iain and Co. going up north, or the archery group. I am signed up for the novice champs in a week that will give me chance to shoot against the other novices from other schools. I am really torn and felt really stressed out when I made my decision, I still don't know if I made the right choice.
pros of going to SUS match:
- personal gratification for being asked to go to the match
- hanging out with the archery group
- being able to go to a proper university match in my short time here
- will have time to revise and work
cons of going to SUS match:
- currently not shooting well while I am still trying to use some of the coaching I got last Sunday and get used to different equipment.
- if I shoot terribly I will just regret not going up north and feel miserable,
- even if I shoot and EUAC wins the meet and goes on to win the other matches after I leave, my reward will be the satisfaction of going to the match.
- feeling more and more distant from Iain and Co because I've been spending so much time with archery.
- if I shoot poorly, it will only further the belief that some people EUAC have that I shouldn't have gotten a bow to shoot this term.
- backing out of a confirmation that I already made making me unreliable and flaky. also giving the organizer a really hard time.
In the end I decided not to back out on the trip and turn down the opportunity that I was hoping to be given at least once this term. I don't know if I made the right decision or not and I feel like I can't please everyone. At the moment I fell miserable. Whatever choice I made I would have let someone down. I could hear it in the voices of the people I talked to last night. This and academics is really stressing me out. I plan to shoot a lot next week since I will only have one class on Monday and Thursday. This way I can feel confidant for the competition on Dec. 1 and be happy with my shooting. If I do well then, this will all be worth it.
3 comments:
sounds like you've got a topic for your med school personal statements...
Blog more, there's nothing interesting online . . .
i miss you honey :)
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